Random collection of thoughts

April...can't believe it's April. This year is flying by. Camden is amazing as usual! He loves baseball. That and Toy Story (1,2 or 3) occupy him pretty much 24/7. He is playing T-ball and already looks like a pro ;) So focused and excited. It was too cute the other day b/c we had practice right after school so I took his clothes to change into. We were walking to the room and he said he needed his baseball shoes. I told him I had them and he asked "at school?" Yup. His response? "Yay, woo hoo, awesome!" As he clapped his hands. Way too cute!!! Wish I had been taping it. He is doing great at school - always wanting to help and please his teachers. He can spell his name and is learning to write it. He also loves UT - and has been to a UT football game, UT basketball game and UT baseball game. He is a true blessing and I am thankful everyday for him!!!!
Keven is doing well. Started a new job at HP and liking it. He stays pretty busy between that and keeping up with Camden's t-ball.
One of my half time positions was eliminated so I currently have only a half time position. I'm not overly concerned about it although I guess I should be. I would love to work only half time so I could focus more on SMA stuff and maybe get caught up on everything around the house and stuff...And maybe have another little one around to take care of.
We are still trying to adopt. I'm so more than ready! I'm trying to trust what's meant to be will be...but it's hard. And I've always felt you have to try and help yourself - not just sit around and wait for stuff to happen. But I'm starting to wonder if that's what I'm supposed to do. Sit around and wait. I feel like I get signs but I'm not sure which way to read them...or if it's all in my imagination. I just don't know. I did get a sign from Grace on Tuesday. That was nice. I was at dinner with friends and had been there for about an hour...and I look over and right next to me is a sticker of Boots. I had looked over there several times during the evening and never noticed it. And there it was. After we had been talking about adoption and kids. I know it was a sign from her. Other signs I've gotten this week are mostly that I can't control and plan everything. I learned that with Grace. Guess I needed some reminding. There was a lot going on this week, a lot planned...and a lot that didn't go as planned. So, I know I can't control stuff...but does that mean to not try and plan stuff? Not to try and do anything? Just to let it all go? Or can I still try and do stuff but just remember that it's not up to me...I just don't know....What I do know is...something needs to change...I don't know which sign I'm supposed to read or follow or what I'm supposed to get from it or do with it...but something needs to change...